More pics of LA-La's last few months...

Not so fast...

Well after many tears yesterday (and achey boobs) I decided that cold turkey was not going to work for us. So I nursed her before bed and early in the morning. But I am going to wean her. And it is going to start with not nursing her through her naps!!! (as seen above) Hence she has not slept since 5AM! I have gotten her out of bed twice to eat food, drink milk and play. Then I put her back in her bed screaming. She has screamed almost 6 hours today!!! AHHH! But I don't care! I am drawing the line. Either she figures out how to sleep alone or I quit! I can't do this anymore! Dan (God bless him) thinks that I should keep on holding/nursing for every nap...because at least she is getting sleep and not screaming her throat raw. But if I do that one more time I am going to loose my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I refuse to be the binky. Sorry if I sound psychotic, but that is exactly how I feel. I will let you know how the rest of the day goes....chances are she will continue to scream until bedtime. This girl is one stubborn determined little chica.

Remember ME?

This is the reason I haven't blogged in 5 months!!! She has taken over my life. And I have allowed it bcecause I thought I was doing the right thing. Nursing every time she wants it, holding her while she naps, sleeping with her in the crook of my arm. Well no more folks! Today is the first day of the rest of my life after babies. My boobs are ROCK hard, but I am full of resolve and determined not to nurse her anymore. She will be 1 in two weeks, and ready for milk in a cup. I am convinced this is the answer to our sleeping problems and my lack of motivations. Maybe I will start feeling good about myself again. Like I am a real person. And not a zombie. Maybe life won't seem so hard all the time. Overwhelming. Maybe I can go back to my own interests and hobbies a little. (Like this blog, etc.) Maybe accomplish some goals. I am nervous that this will all back fire and that is why I write "MAYBE". Daniel is going to take over with her for the next three days, Love that guy, and hopefully by Tuesday the worst will be over and it will be smooth sailing.

Anyhow, glad to be back to you all. Well, the three of you that ask me to update my blog. Love you!

First Day...

First time getting a haircut with out crying!!! Yeah for Benji! That was last friday at Cookie Cutters. He usually screams in pain every time anyone touches his hair. What a relief we are past that stage!

First time Saying goodbye after a loooong summer break! The kids were sooo anxious to get back to school this morning.

First Day of Third grade. What Emma might be thinking, "Cute boy next to me? School might not be so bad after all!" OR "Quit taking pictures of me Mom! You are a big nerd!!"

First day of Fifth Grade!!! What!!?? Ethan has tons of friends in his class this year! And for the first time since first grade he is back with SETH! Yes, Ethan is a little on the short side, but Sam (on his right) is just a little on the tall side!

And Finallly....the first day I let baberzz cry it out at nap time! Not going so well....not to mention I look kind of scary myself!

TODAY IS YOUR DAY....

This has been such a great day for Emma (8 years old) today. And a really fun day for all of us.... Classic (was really) FUN Center! So excited my baby girl is no longer a baby and is moving up the ranks. 8 is so great!




On a down note though, I am into my third or fourth or fifth, I have lost track, day of letting Lauren cry it out. I HATE this part. Can't they just learn to sleep on their own naturally? Do I really have to "train" them to sleep? I can't think of anything worse than listening to your 6 month old scream and telling yourself it is for her own good and yours. If I weren't so determined to have normal naps and bedtime, there is no way I could endure this! PLEASE tell me this is not going to traumatize her into thinking her mother is unreliable and is not meeting her needs! Plus I am probably doing it wrong. I give up after an hour.

One of her cat naps....